forgiveness

for the passed week or 2 i had been wrestling with forgiveness...basically because God's forgiveness is incomprehensible to me and all i can do is have faith and accept it. but he kept bringing stuff up to me that i'd never really thought about. one example is king david. david was the only person on earth who had the Spirit dwelling in him and speaking to him yet he still went so far as to sleep with a soldiers wife then have the husband killed to cover it up...and God still forgave him and restored his anointing! what?!!!! how much more will he forgive me? how can i even think that he would leave me? tonight alex mitchel and i went to the living room in homewood to pray. while i was praying God told me to turn to Zechariah. i think...strange, i've never even opened to this book ever i don't think. i'm pretty sure i even forgot it was in there ha. but in Zechariah 1:3 the Lord says, "Return to me AND I WILL RETURN TO YOU." He will never leave us no matter what we do if we turn back to Him. he is so faithful and so comforting!
at one point in auburn last year i was struggling with myself that i was even saved because of the same thing of how could God love me and forgive me for grieving Him. i battled this for about a month and one day while walking home from school i just cried out to him and instantly i heard almost audibly (but in my spirit) "You are my son!" i could not make myself make that up at the moment in time because i tried and there was no way i could convince myself that i was His. but He told me! He told me! Jesus...mmmmmmmm